Ahhh! I think I'm about to go crazy! Today is day 32 of this cycle and still no start of what Andy has dubbed "ladies week" of the month! I don't know if this is good or bad....I so want to hope that this is good news but it's so hard to let my hopes soar when they have been dashed to pieces time and time again leaving my heart in tiny broken pieces and me a sobbing heap on the floor or curled up in Andy's arms. I am so hoping that THIS is the month, and yet if it's not, that "ladies week" would hurry up and come so my hopes don't get any higher, because with each day that passes and no "ladies week" my hopes climb a bit higher. I want to take a pregnancy test and yet I'm scared to in case there isn't 2 lines. I've had a few possible symptoms, but they're what the medical world call "soft symptoms" meaning they could mean pregnancy but they could also mean "ladies week" is coming. One second I have my emotions together and am perfectly fine and the next I almost lose it. Thankfully I have an amazing husband who is the most patient man ever and loves me and helps me through my moments of craziness! I just love him! Lord please bless Andy and I with a miracle and please let my next pregnancy test positive!! I know YOU alone can do anything and I pray for this blessing! I know that if God chooses that another answer is better for us at this time, that HE knows best, but it will be oh soooo hard. Keep praying for us! Thank you so much!
Love,
~Whitney~
Some dream of big houses
Or shiny new cars,
Ours is to someday
Hold a baby that's ours.
Some dream of more money
To hoard and to keep,
Mine is to someday
Rock my baby to sleep.
Some dream of careers
In buildings so tall,
His is to someday
Kick his kid a football.
Some dream of great power
To be strong and tough,
Ours is to someday
Have a child to love.
Some dream of things
Such as silver and gold
Ours is of the day
Our child we'll hold.
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