Grace

You then, my child, be strengthened by the grace that is in Christ

Jesus, and what you have heard from me in the presence of

many witnesses entrust to faithful men who will be able to teach

others also.   ~2 Timothy 2:1-2~

Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his 

love endures forever. ~Psalm 107:1~

Day 32 = I don't know what to think or feel!

Ahhh! I think I'm about to go crazy! Today is day 32 of this cycle and still no start of what Andy has dubbed "ladies week" of the month! I don't know if this is good or bad....I so want to hope that this is good news but it's so hard to let my hopes soar when they have been dashed to pieces time and time again leaving my heart in tiny broken pieces and me a sobbing heap on the floor or curled up in Andy's arms. I am so hoping that THIS is the month, and yet if it's not, that "ladies week" would hurry up and come so my hopes don't get any higher, because with each day that passes and no "ladies week" my hopes climb a bit higher. I want to take a pregnancy test and yet I'm scared to in case there isn't 2 lines. I've had a few possible symptoms, but they're what the medical world call "soft symptoms" meaning they could mean pregnancy but they could also mean "ladies week" is coming. One second I have my emotions together and am perfectly fine and the next I almost lose it. Thankfully I have an amazing husband who is the most patient man ever and loves me and helps me through my moments of craziness! I just love him! Lord please bless Andy and I with a miracle and please let my next pregnancy test positive!! I know YOU alone can do anything and I pray for this blessing! I know that if God chooses that another answer is better for us at this time, that HE knows best, but it will be oh soooo hard. Keep praying for us! Thank you so much!

Love,

~Whitney~

Some dream of big houses

Or shiny new cars,

Ours is to someday 

Hold a baby that's ours.

Some dream of more money

To hoard and to keep,

Mine is to someday

Rock my baby to sleep.

Some dream of careers

In buildings so tall,

His is to someday

Kick his kid a football.

Some dream of great power

To be strong and tough,

Ours is to someday

Have a child to love.

Some dream of things

Such as silver and gold

Ours is of the day

Our child we'll hold.

2 week waits = emotional roller coasters

Oh the 2+ week wait until the earliest time I can take a pregnancy test...sooo hard! Emotions are all over the place. One second I think that I have a early sign of pregnancy but then the next second I think that maybe it's just me reading into things. I want to keep my hopes up for good news soon, but I am also trying to be realistic and not get my hopes up too high since it has always been bad news in the past and however high I get my hopes up if the result is the same this time then I will come crashing down that much more in disappointment. Hopefully this will be our last 2 week wait! ;)

I don't know what I will do when I get results either way (so if I don't post an answer right away, know that it could be because the answer was not what we hoped for and need some time to grieve...or maybe we'll want to post as a way to process our feelings. or maybe if we get the results we are praying for it may be because we haven't had a chance to tell our families).

Please keep Andy and I in your prayers and thank you for your love and support! Continuing to hope and pray that THIS is the month that we will be blessed with a little miracle from God!! 

Knowing that God know what's best with whatever result,

~Whitney~

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"As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy." 

~James 5:11~

"Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him." 

~James 1:12~

amazing God

Praying for God's amazing story for us would shine no matter the outcome because we serve an AMAZING God!!! =)

Please take a moment to listen to this song! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3gbJGByIOE

His presence :)

thankful for God always being near =)

His grace

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

~2 Corinthians 12:9-10~

still hoping...

I'm still hoping for this month! A little discouraged though as today is day 20 and according to the home ovulation kit that I use every day I still haven't ovulated. I know that sometimes the home kits don't show that you're ovulating, but I can't help but wonder....oh the emotional rollercoaster this journey is...last Friday I had high hopes as things seemed to be working and this Friday I'm a little discouraged. I'm definitely not as down as I have felt on some days so I guess that's good. :) Just my thoughts and feelings today. I'm hoping and praying ever so hard each day for happy news soon!! Praying the Lord uses this Clomid to ovulate and bless Andy and I with the desire of our hearts! Thank you all for your love and prayers! 
~Whitney~

Desert

Desert song:

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong/the_desert_song.html ]
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong/#share

songs :)

Still:

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust

Indescribable:

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea

Creation's revealing Your majesty

From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring

Every creature unique in the song that it sings

All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go

Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow

Who imagined the sun and gives source to it's light

Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night

None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

Incomparable, unchangeable

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

update on last post...

Hey there everyone,
Sorry for the delayed update on my last post! It's been a busy weekend! On Friday I posted about the follicular study (ultrasound). The results were good and the Clomid seems to be working and I have several eggs that are developing so hopefully they will all release and THIS will be the month!! Oh I hope I hope! At least I finally have some eggs developing there so that's good! Praying for some good news soon! Thank you all for your love and prayers! :)
Love,
~Whitney~

off to Bronson again today...

Today I'm going in for a follicular study to see if/how many eggs are developing from taking the Clomid....hopefully there will be a few! Hopefully THIS will be the month!! Please Lord bless Andy and I with a little miracle and blessing this month!

Hoping and praying,

~Whitney~