8 weeks 3 days (12/19/12)

How Far Along: 8 weeks 3 days

Today’s date: 12/19/12

Size of the Baby: a kidney bean

Maternity Clothes: no, but I think that is going to come sooner than I expected! Almost all clothing is uncomfortable (except for dresses), but I’m trying to not officially announce it to everyone else and on facebook until we get to 12 weeks which is still 3 1/2 weeks away!  

Stretch marks: none

Weight gain: 4 lbs.

Sleep: waking up at least twice a night

Best Moment of the Week: Just being able to relax all day today and do pretty much nothing! :)

Movement: none  

Food Cravings:  none...nothing sounds appetizing 

Gender:  unknown

Belly Button in or out: in

Anything making you queasy or sick: yes

Labor Signs: no

Wedding ring on or off: On 

What I miss: having energy to do stuff and to stay awake later than 8:30/9:00 at night...lol! ;)  

What I am looking forward to:   Telling my grandparents on my Dad’s side that they’re going to be great grandparents again at our family Christmas party on Saturday evening!!

Nursery:  I have a few things I’ve tucked away that I found a few months ago.

Emotions: Happy!! :)

Truth! :)

The beautiful Christmas flowers my wonderful hubby bought me a few days ago! :)

The picture frame I made with a copy of our ultrasound picture! This is what we're giving my Nana & Papa for Christmas this Saturday at our family Christmas party! :)

Baby's first picture! 7 weeks 2 days (12/11/12)

How Far Along: 7 weeks 2 days

Today’s date: 12/11/12

Size of the Baby: a blueberry (about 1/2 inch)

Maternity Clothes: no, but all pants are too snug to zip so I bought a couple of belly bands from a maternity store. can’t wear many of my shirts. :)  

Stretch marks: none

Weight gain: 2 lbs.

Sleep: waking up at least twice a night

Best Moment of the Week: having the first ultrasound today and seeing baby for the first time with Andy!! we also were able to see the heartbeat which was 120 beats/minute (normal for this stage in pregnancy...it will go higher by 10-12 weeks)! I'm in love with him/her already!

Movement: none  

Food Cravings:  none...nothing sounds appetizing 

Gender:  unknown

Belly Button in or out: in

Anything making you queasy or sick: yes...most foods, car rides, anything even related to something gross, etc. morning sickness (or rather all day sickness for me) began last Wednesday (12/5/12). Best reason in the world though to feel super sick though is pregnancy!

Labor Signs: no

Wedding ring on or off: On 

What I miss: having energy to do stuff and to stay awake later than 8:30/9:00 at night...lol! ;)  

What I am looking forward to:   Hearing the heartbeat at my appointment in January!

Nursery:  I have a few things I’ve tucked away that I found a few months ago.

Emotions: Happy!! :)

Baby Mayer #1

Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!

~2 Corinthians 9:15~

6 weeks 2 days (12/4/12)

How Far Along: 6 weeks 2 days

Today’s date: 12/4/12

Size of the Baby: a lentil bean

Maternity Clothes: no, but my jeans are almost too snug to zip. (i unbutton them when i sit...when I can anyways...lol)  

Stretch marks: none

Weight gain: 2 lbs.

Sleep: waking up at least once a night

Best Moment of the Week: telling more friends that we’re expecting!

Movement: none  

Food Cravings:  pizza 

Gender:  unknown

Belly Button in or out: in

Anything making you queasy or sick: no

Labor Signs: no

Wedding ring on or off: On 

What I miss: nothing  

What I am looking forward to:   The first ultrasound one week from today!!! Andy gets to go with and we should be able to see the heartbeat!

Nursery:  I have a few things I’ve tucked away that I found a couple months ago.

Emotions: Happy!! :)

5 weeks 3 days (11/28/12)

How Far Along: 5 weeks 3 days

Today’s date: 11/28/12

Size of the Baby: a sesame seed

Maternity Clothes: no   

Stretch marks: none

Weight gain: none

Sleep: waking up at least once a night

Best Moment of the Week: telling more friends that we’re expecting!

Movement: none  

Food Cravings:  pizza 

Gender:  unknown

Belly Button in or out: in

Anything making you queasy or sick: nothing in particular, I start feeling sick when I haven’t eaten something in the last 1 1/2 - 2 hours

Labor Signs: no

Wedding ring on or off: On 

What I miss: eating cookie dough and licking the cake/brownie batter off of the beaters (can’t eat raw eggs). Other than that, nothing! I will gladly not eat that to be pregnant!!  

What I am looking forward to:   The first ultrasound in about 1 1/2 weeks!! Andy gets to go with and we should be able to see the heartbeat!

Nursery:  I have a few things I’ve tucked away that I found a couple months ago.

Emotions: I am sooo happy and thankful for this gift from God!!! Every time I stop and think and remember that I’m pregnant I just get this happiness that is in my heart!!

4 weeks 4 days (11/22/12)

How Far Along: 4 weeks 4 days 

Today’s date: 11/22/12

Size of the Baby: a poppy seed

Maternity Clothes: no   

Stretch marks: none

Weight gain: none

Sleep: for the last week or so I’ve been waking up around 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom

Best Moment of the Week:  this morning when I found out I was pregnant and told Andy!  

Movement: none  

Food Cravings:  none currently but all last week all I wanted was pizza 

Gender:  unknown

Belly Button in or out: in

Anything making you queasy or sick: no

Labor Signs: no

Wedding ring on or off: On 

What I miss: nothing!  

What I am looking forward to:   telling his family today on Thanksgiving and then my family tomorrow when we celebrate Thanksgiving with them!

Nursery:  I have a few things I’ve tucked away that I found a couple months ago.

Emotions: I am sooo excited, happy, thankful, blessed, and I give all the praise to God!!

This picture was actually taken the day after we found out, but I wanted to stop in babies r us on black friday (I don't normally go black friday shopping) on the way to my parents for our thanksgiving! I couldn't resist parking here! ;) lol

So far behind!

Hey there! Sooo...I'm a bit far behind on pregnancy updates, pictures, etc. So bear with

 me in the next few posts! I will try to do better in the future! :)

~Whitney~

For this child we have prayed =)

Dear family and friends,

Thank you for your continued prayers and encouragement! We wanted to send you another update to keep you posted on what is going on in our lives and how you can best pray for us!

As you know Whitney began her first round of treatment with the medication called Clomid to help make her ovulate. She had a follow up appointment on the 2nd of November for an ultrasound to see how the medication was working and it seemed to be doing what the medication was designed for. Then early Thanksgiving morning she took a pregnancy test and the result was....pregnant!! Our (and your) prayers have been answered!! We have a little blessing and miracle on the way!!! He or she will be due around the end of July!! All the glory and praise go to God!!!

We wanted to tell you because you have kept us in your prayers as we have walked this journey and now are asking for prayers for a healthy baby! 

Please do NOT share this with anyone though as we are waiting until we get to at least 12 weeks along (and that won’t be until mid-January). The only people that know are our family and you (the friends we had praying for us on this journey). Thanks for keeping it a secret for now!

Blessings to you all!

Love,

~Andy & Whitney~

"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him." ~1 Samuel 1:27~

A season for everything

A life that brings glory to God

Throughout this journey God has blessed me with my family and many friends that continually pray for us, and for that we are sooo thankful! One friend of our often posts on Facebook about God's word and our relationship with our heavenly Father and the posts are always encouraging (Thanks Tom!)! One that stood out to me in particular was the following:

"Zechariah 4:10 Do not despise these small beginnings, for the LORD rejoices to see the work begin, to see the plumb line in Zerubbabel's hand.

There is a principle in the Bible that dramatically effects how much heavenly power touches me and you on earth. Learning to walk in agreement with this principle will increase the amount of actual power I walk in. It is this: those who are faithful with a little are given much more.

The Bible is FULL of stories of broken men and women, just like me and you, experiencing God's very real power and changing impossible situations on earth. Moses holding his staff out over the water in faith to part the Red Sea and striking a rock to make water come out of it in the desert. Elijah striking the Jordan river with his jacket to make it part. Elisha raising a boy from the dead, Daniel knowing other peoples dreams and vision, not to mention knowing the meaning of them. Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego surviving a fiery furnace that killed the soldiers that just got too close, Daniel in the lions den, David and Goliath, Paul's prison earthquake, Peter and Johns miraculous healing ministry....these stories are just the beginning! The Bible is filled with supernatural encounters for real men and women like us.

God's intention is for my testimony to be filled with power. He doesn't prevent me from, but rather longs to hear me, saying "why not me." Jesus responds to that question with "ask, seek, knock.". Paul would echo, "that kind of a question is a yes and amen in the realm of heaven."

If I am going to go after...contend for...a life of power to bring glory to God...to bring more fame to Jesus' name...then I have to remember the economy of heaven: God gives food to the hungry, and those faithful with a little will be given much more.

If I pray to hear God's voice, but then ignore the prompting to say a simple encouraging word to the lady in the checkout line, that is the opposite of being faithful. If I pray for the green beans to not run out before everyone at the big Thanksgiving dinner gets some, and they actually DO last through dinner, but then I laugh off the miracle as silly or small, then I am not being faithful.

BUT, if I pray on all occasions, even for the simple miracles, and thank God when He answers (and He is affirmatively answering small prayers ALL the time that we forget or write off as minor) even telling others about God breaking in with power over the green beans, or the sun breaking through the clouds when I needed it, or the checking account lasting through the month inexplicably...then I am being faithful with a little. When I begin to live like this, I better hold on to my seat, because that is being faithful with a little, and much more IS coming.

What am I contending for, and what do I do when it actually comes into my life in small doses? The answer to this question actually shaped every great man or woman of God's life to the point their lives became so powerful that we read about them today. I'm going for it!

Luke 16: 10 "If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won't be honest with greater responsibilities.

Luke 19: 17 "`Well done!' the king exclaimed. `You are a good servant. You have been faithful with the little I entrusted to you, so you will be governor of ten cities as your reward.'

John 14: 12 "I tell you the truth, anyone who believes in me (Jesus) will do the same works I have done, and even greater works, because I am going to be with the Father. 13 You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. 14 Yes, ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it!”    

Blessings to you all,
~Whitney~

Grace

You then, my child, be strengthened by the grace that is in Christ

Jesus, and what you have heard from me in the presence of

many witnesses entrust to faithful men who will be able to teach

others also.   ~2 Timothy 2:1-2~

Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his 

love endures forever. ~Psalm 107:1~

Day 32 = I don't know what to think or feel!

Ahhh! I think I'm about to go crazy! Today is day 32 of this cycle and still no start of what Andy has dubbed "ladies week" of the month! I don't know if this is good or bad....I so want to hope that this is good news but it's so hard to let my hopes soar when they have been dashed to pieces time and time again leaving my heart in tiny broken pieces and me a sobbing heap on the floor or curled up in Andy's arms. I am so hoping that THIS is the month, and yet if it's not, that "ladies week" would hurry up and come so my hopes don't get any higher, because with each day that passes and no "ladies week" my hopes climb a bit higher. I want to take a pregnancy test and yet I'm scared to in case there isn't 2 lines. I've had a few possible symptoms, but they're what the medical world call "soft symptoms" meaning they could mean pregnancy but they could also mean "ladies week" is coming. One second I have my emotions together and am perfectly fine and the next I almost lose it. Thankfully I have an amazing husband who is the most patient man ever and loves me and helps me through my moments of craziness! I just love him! Lord please bless Andy and I with a miracle and please let my next pregnancy test positive!! I know YOU alone can do anything and I pray for this blessing! I know that if God chooses that another answer is better for us at this time, that HE knows best, but it will be oh soooo hard. Keep praying for us! Thank you so much!

Love,

~Whitney~

Some dream of big houses

Or shiny new cars,

Ours is to someday 

Hold a baby that's ours.

Some dream of more money

To hoard and to keep,

Mine is to someday

Rock my baby to sleep.

Some dream of careers

In buildings so tall,

His is to someday

Kick his kid a football.

Some dream of great power

To be strong and tough,

Ours is to someday

Have a child to love.

Some dream of things

Such as silver and gold

Ours is of the day

Our child we'll hold.

2 week waits = emotional roller coasters

Oh the 2+ week wait until the earliest time I can take a pregnancy test...sooo hard! Emotions are all over the place. One second I think that I have a early sign of pregnancy but then the next second I think that maybe it's just me reading into things. I want to keep my hopes up for good news soon, but I am also trying to be realistic and not get my hopes up too high since it has always been bad news in the past and however high I get my hopes up if the result is the same this time then I will come crashing down that much more in disappointment. Hopefully this will be our last 2 week wait! ;)

I don't know what I will do when I get results either way (so if I don't post an answer right away, know that it could be because the answer was not what we hoped for and need some time to grieve...or maybe we'll want to post as a way to process our feelings. or maybe if we get the results we are praying for it may be because we haven't had a chance to tell our families).

Please keep Andy and I in your prayers and thank you for your love and support! Continuing to hope and pray that THIS is the month that we will be blessed with a little miracle from God!! 

Knowing that God know what's best with whatever result,

~Whitney~

~ ~ ~

"As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy." 

~James 5:11~

"Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him." 

~James 1:12~

amazing God

Praying for God's amazing story for us would shine no matter the outcome because we serve an AMAZING God!!! =)

Please take a moment to listen to this song! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3gbJGByIOE

His presence :)

thankful for God always being near =)

His grace

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

~2 Corinthians 12:9-10~

still hoping...

I'm still hoping for this month! A little discouraged though as today is day 20 and according to the home ovulation kit that I use every day I still haven't ovulated. I know that sometimes the home kits don't show that you're ovulating, but I can't help but wonder....oh the emotional rollercoaster this journey is...last Friday I had high hopes as things seemed to be working and this Friday I'm a little discouraged. I'm definitely not as down as I have felt on some days so I guess that's good. :) Just my thoughts and feelings today. I'm hoping and praying ever so hard each day for happy news soon!! Praying the Lord uses this Clomid to ovulate and bless Andy and I with the desire of our hearts! Thank you all for your love and prayers! 
~Whitney~

Desert

Desert song:

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong/the_desert_song.html ]
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong/#share

songs :)

Still:

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust

Indescribable:

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea

Creation's revealing Your majesty

From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring

Every creature unique in the song that it sings

All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go

Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow

Who imagined the sun and gives source to it's light

Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night

None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

All powerful, untameable,

Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.

You are amazing God

Incomparable, unchangeable

You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same

You are amazing God

You are amazing God

update on last post...

Hey there everyone,
Sorry for the delayed update on my last post! It's been a busy weekend! On Friday I posted about the follicular study (ultrasound). The results were good and the Clomid seems to be working and I have several eggs that are developing so hopefully they will all release and THIS will be the month!! Oh I hope I hope! At least I finally have some eggs developing there so that's good! Praying for some good news soon! Thank you all for your love and prayers! :)
Love,
~Whitney~

off to Bronson again today...

Today I'm going in for a follicular study to see if/how many eggs are developing from taking the Clomid....hopefully there will be a few! Hopefully THIS will be the month!! Please Lord bless Andy and I with a little miracle and blessing this month!

Hoping and praying,

~Whitney~

ALL things...

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. ~Romans 8:28~

Empty Womb

October 25,2012

God has a plan for me. His ways are far better than mine. :)

Abiding in Him,

~Whitney~

Empty Womb

By Meredith Fuller

I had a certain picture

Of how my life would be.

But I forgot to ask my Lord

What He had planned for me.

Just one life to fill my womb,

All my dreams leaned toward.

But idle waiting no one serves,

And least of all, the Lord.

How precious still the things I have

I'd somehow lost sight of,

God did whisper to my heart,

"Hold dear those things I love."

My heart did break to let it go,

This certain path I'd planned.

But in its place, He gave me life

New purpose from His hand.

When it seems that hope is lost,

The Quiet too much to bear,

He comes to me and comforts me

And says, "Child, I'm still here."

He wipes the flood of tears away,

Brings newness to my soul.

Then takes away the shame I feel

And somehow makes me whole.

Never have I walked so close

That I could call Him "Friend."

He drew me nigh, right to His heart

And let me glimpse within.

I thank the Lord for emptiness

Where life still does not grow

For oft' His richest blessing,

On the surface, does not show.

He may return what I've let go,

Or just want me to see:

"You may not have just what you want,

But always, you'll have Me."

update

Dear family and friends,

Thank you for your continued love and prayers as we seek to follow God's leading for our family. This is definitely not an easy journey but we are thankful for God's abounding grace and mercy! 

We had a relaxing and wonderful vacation which was much needed! As we write this we are in the Denver airport waiting for our last flight to return home! So we will send this email out once we return home. 

Once we return home, Whitney will be starting the medication Clomid which is used to induce ovulation as the previous  7 months of tests seem to show that she doesn't ovulate or if she does it is very infrequent. 

Please pray for our hearts to remain focused on Christ and what His will is and not what we would so greatly desire.

Blessings to you all!

Love,

~Andy & Whitney~

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." ~Ephesians 3:20~

journaling...

I often find that writing/journaling helps me think through what I'm feeling and to process things in my life and so I have journaled since about high school. As I mentioned in a previous post, I want to be open and honest. Most days now I am doing well by God's abounding grace and mercy and there are some days here and there that my heart just aches. Often you all see the times when I'm holding it together and doing well but sometimes when you see me I am hurting deeply inside or you just don't see me on my bad days. Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement. Some of you have mentioned to me that you're amazed at how well I am doing and how strong my faith is, and for that I am humbled. My prayer is that even through this journey that is sometimes difficult for Andy and I, that our story would reflect Christ and what He is doing and not us. I am blessed to have such a wonderful husband who is encouraging and is always by my side!
~Whitney~

September 5, 2012

Every couple weeks I make a trip to Meijer. While I’m usually there to buy food, I often find myself meandering about the store (as my husband can attest...lol!). Sure I only need some bread or milk, but a detour through the home goods section never hurt anyone, right? Every once in a while I find myself wandering through a more painful section of Meijer. The baby aisle. Call it wishful thinking, but I sometimes feel drawn to all the little outfits, furniture, and products that are designed for that little bundle of joy. Sometimes it makes me hopeful. Hopeful that one day I will have a reason to step foot in the baby section of a store without someone else’s baby registry in hand. But sometimes it just makes me ache when I see the large bold letters “Baby” across the center aisle. “That’s not for me,” I think to myself. Bathroom, kitchen, and bedroom accessories? Yes. Baby section? Not me. I don’t belong there.

Maybe you can relate. Perhaps you are on a similar journey as I am on, or the time(s) you have been pregnant resulted in your little blessing returning to heaven before you have met him/her, too, and seeing all of the baby clothes at the store just brings to mind too many thoughts of what could have been.  Maybe you are struggling through infertility as I am, and the baby section is another reminder of dashed hopes every month. 

So what’s a girl to do? I can’t avoid Walmart, Target, and every store that sells baby things. 

For the most part I feel pretty good about my trips to Meijer and Target. But there are some days where it just hits me like a never-ending freight train, and I feel overwhelmed with sadness that I don’t belong in the baby section, even though every part of me hoped and thought I would this year. I might not belong in the baby section, but I do belong somewhere much more comforting—at the foot of the cross. 

“But Jesus doesn’t turn away the grievers. “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” I am called blessed. And I’m promised His comfort. 

This is blessed assurance. It’s like a great big sign at the foot of the Cross that says: 

“You Belong Here.”

Clinging to the foot of the Cross,

~Whitney~

September 6, 2012

Where does one start when trying to somehow write what is in one’s heart? As I sat next to my amazing hubby tonight while we were watching a movie. I always look over at him once in a while since I just love looking at him and thinking about how much I love him. Tonight was the same but sad thoughts came to my mind as they do at times on this road of infertility we find ourselves on. As I looked at him I just thought about him as a dad someday and all that we had dreamed about together. Dreams that may never come to pass because of my health issues. It deeply saddens my heart and brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it. He has been so wonderful throughout this whole journey and loves me for who I am and never once put the blame on me. The human part of me cries inside and think that somehow it’s all my fault. It’s hard to look in the mirror sometimes and love myself because I know the hurt in my heart and how very very much I would give anything to be able to get pregnant and have a baby with Andy. I always dreamed of getting married to the most wonderful man (which I did!) and having OUR children. Instead, all around me beautiful babies are born to our friends and families. Please don’t misunderstand....I am always happy for them but I also hurt inside and wish that it was my turn. Please Lord, when will it be our turn? Why do we have to go through this? Why put this desire in my heart only to seemingly turn a deaf ear to our cries? Oh I know, I should trust God...and I do...but sometimes some things just don’t seem the way that they are “supposed to be”. Sometimes I cry out to God “why? Andy would be the best dad! If not for me then please answer our prayer request for him. I love him so much and it pains me to know that he may never have his own kids because of me. Because of ME. ME.” My heart is heavy and somehow all these words don’t even begin to touch the pain that is in my heart. I guess I will finish this later as the tears in my eyes are making it hard to see the computer screen anymore. 

tearfully,

~Whitney~

September 14, 2012

Going into marriage you’re very idealistic. You don’t dream that

you’ll have fertility issues, but that’s a reality. As hard as it is

to picture that I might never have a baby that looks like Andy, God is still good and He still loves us. He hasn’t forgotten us because the picture looks different than what we thought it would. We hope that will change, but if it doesn't it will still be okay. At the end of my day, I can still praise God for what He has done in our lives.

Growing in God’s Grace,

~Whitney~

September 15,2012

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. ~Exodus 14:14~

September 16,2012

The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace. ~Psalm 29:11~

September 29, 2012

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,

Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;

Streams of mercy, never ceasing,

Call for songs of loudest praise.

Teach me some melodious sonnet,

Sung by flaming tongues above.

Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it,

Mount of Thy redeeming love.

October 22,2012

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." ~Ephesians 3:20~

1 Peter 5:7

The last few days I've been discouraged and last night wasn't any better....I know God hears me, but sometimes I still feel so alone....this journey Andy and I are on brings me to tears sometimes.... =(

~Whitney~

I `am So Discouraged Lord  

I`m discouraged Lord, But I`m trusting in you I`m discouraged Lord, But I know you`ll get me through When we get discouraged , and feel down I know to turn to you, To turn things around I know these are trials .We must go through I know I should`nt get feeling down and blue I know you don`t want to see my eyes filled with these tears You want me to be strong. As I have been through the years It seems once again my world is falling apart I love you Lord Jesus with all of my heart I`m trying Dear Lord, So hard to be strong I`ve been through so much, It seems my strength is gone I feel like I`m losing it ,Can`t hold together much longer I need you Lord to strengthen me, Once again make me stronger For I am so discouraged Lord I just don`t know what to do I`m trying to hold on to my faith and keep my trust in you It seems that I`m lost in this Big lonely world of today Each day more and more I seem to lose my way I`m sorry Lord for feeling discouraged and so low Without you in my life I`ve no where to go I know that you are aware of all I`m going through I also know to dry my tears And put my trust in you I`m discouraged Lord, And don`t know what to do I`m trying to be strong, As I trust in you By: Libra Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. ~1 Peter 5:7~

Psalm 139

THis is one of my two favorite chapters in God's Word!

~Whitney~

Psalm 139

You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.

You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”

even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
    Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!

They speak of you with evil intent;
    your adversaries misuse your name.

Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
    and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?

I have nothing but hatred for them;
    I count them my enemies.

Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

A deep ache

A deep ache within me today....God I know your way is best but my heart aches so much at times....please give me YOUR grace.... 

tearfully,

~Whitney~

I wonder...

I wonder....

If my life were full of sunshine,

with never a rainy day,

I wonder how I'd treat my Lord

And just how much I'd pray.

If all were peace and happiness

With never a stormy sea,

I wonder if I'd live as close,

And could He speak to me?

If my heart were never broken

And never a tear I shed,

Would I search His Word for comfort

And let my soul be fed?

If through life I knew no sorrow

Or my body felt no pain,

Would I long for Heaven's glory

And Christ's return to reign?

But my Father knows the answer,

He all my weakness sees;

And perhaps He sends the storm clouds

To drive me to my knees.

So that I may learn to trust Him,

Feel secure from all that harms,

And that I may feel beneath me

His everlasting arms.

~Author Unknown~